Thursday, 29 October 2009
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Another strange dream
i will only recount one part of this odd dream, and there was too much to go into.... so i was trying to get to a particular store and i had to walk through a few others - but to get into one, i had to walk through a big row of clothes - like the store was overstocked and was putting things where ever they could. i get into the store behind the wall of clothes and it seems to be one i was looking for. There is a man there and his two daughters (one in her teens, the other in her tweens). The dad - who also was the store owner - took one look at me and told me to get out! He saw my Skillet hoodie and claimed that anyone who listed to rock music was going to hell. I tried to explain that Skillet was a Christian band and that they even do a worship set at their concerts. He would have none of it and kept spouting verses at me (none of which i can remember now). Then something changed and he got very meek and went to hide in a softside suitcase that was on the floor!
the older daughter finished zipping him up - like this was a common occurance - and said i should probably leave - that daddy wasn't very nice when he got out of the case. I was trying to tell her that she should listen to Total Axxess as she could get a better understanding of music..... i was even gonna try to get her to go to the website.... but then i got really scared - i think that was when the dad started to get out of the case and so i went running out!! i'm sure this part of the dream is because last night on Total Axxess Wally read an email about a boy and his mom having a disagreement over a Skillet song as to if it was Christian or not.... And looking at the other parts of my dreams that i won't bore you with, i can see where things i was thinking about or heard or read yesterday or last night were incorporated in a slightly different form into my dream..... so strange how our minds remember/capture/use/inturperate the things we see and experience and think....
Monday, 19 October 2009
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horrible dream!
i left work early today because of a feeling a like i'm getting sick (sore throat, chills, foggy mind) and i figured a nap would do worlds of good... i was wrong. i had a horrible dream! Most of you know that i enjoy serving with youth. in this dream, i was at a vdc/trec type function, and there was this woman who was new to the ministry and kept trying to change everything and trying to say others were doing things "wrong". (example: the next part of the function/event was going to be done in this one room, and she just threw a fit staying it was going to be in a nother room so they could decorate this room for a future part!) This function/event was like TrEC in the way that it was youth ran, and i kept having to tell her that no, its not wrong, that is how the youth were doing it this time. And it just went on and on! i was getting so upset in this dream! Then - the final straw. There was a youth who was up front for this function and she had a coat on and this woman demanded that she take the coat off, 1 because "you don't wear coats up front" and 2 because it was like a fake fur animal print and this woman was offended or something. She TORE THE COAT OFF THE YOUTH!!, stormed out of the room and just the youth sitting up there confused and hurt! i tried to sooth the youth before going to find this woman. She was going to Spiritual Director of this event (who was Pastor Doug) to compain about no one listening to her and blah blah blah and then some how she had this entourage with her to help encourage her point. i was so upset that with this woman and trying to explain to her that this funcation/event/ministry was NOT the same as her past experience (in the dream she called it Catholic something or another..... can't remember) and that the youth were allowed to change some things and who cares if one was cold an wanted to wear a coat! i was about at the point of telling PD that it was either her or me - that i wouldn't work with this woman any longer.... but then my phone made a nose and woke me up.... with a worse sore throat than before!
(i hope this is not to confusing, but sometimes dreams are hard to get all the details out....)
Tuesday, 13 October 2009
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i know its been a super long time since i've posted , but i really haven't had too much to say and i've been super busy at work. work is getting more and more strict on web access, so i'm not even sure if i can get to xanga anymore..
anywho - things are going well in life. i am dating a wonderful man who makes me smile.
the project i started (and received a promotion for) at the begining of the year is making great progress. God continually blesses me with the people i am surrounded with. i really have no complaints!
my little bug decided to throw a fault code this weekend, though.. it was Sunday morning after a super cold saturday and my bug sat outside all night. my friend Nicholas is a big Audi/VW guy and he has this really cool software program (VAG-COM by Ross-Tech) that can read the codes and give more information than just the standard OBDII scan (like you can get AutoZone to run for you). one of the codes was for temp sensor and/or thermostat and i totally see that because of how cold it was. the other codes were cylinder misfires - which could mean i need to change my spark plugs and/or the ignition coil pack. we cleared the codes and are gonna see if they happen again. In the mean time, i was researching online and i discovered something that really sucks! an ignition coil for a 1.8L is $32 (MSRP)..... for my 2.0L sport its $278!!! i could get one for less from various places online, but my goodness! what does .2L increase the cost so much! that's just crazy to me! anywho - we shall see if the codes happen again before i purchase any parts...
Sunday, 05 July 2009
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The romantic in me loves this quote from City of Angels""If you'd known this was going to happen would you have done it?
"I would rather have had one breath of her hair...
...one kiss of her mouth...
...one touch of her hand...
... than an eternity with out it.
One."
But i have come to realize that i am much to selfish of a person for this statement to be true. i want more than just one. Once i have something that i've longed for, i don't want to let it go. And this is a problem.
This desire to hold on has caused more heartache than i care to share in such a public way. But i would like to pose a question.... how does one stop being selfish in one's heart? how does one forget? how does one let go?i know the old saying that if you love something set it free - if it returns to you, then its yours to love & if it doesn't it wasn't meant to be..... but how do you stop waiting? how do you not dwell? when one's head knows its right to let go - how does one tell the heart? (i guess that's more than just one question
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i know it all comes down to hope & trust & faith.... but even knowing that doesn't tell me "how" or make it any easier.
*sigh* Into Your hands, oh LORD..........
Saturday, 04 July 2009
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Getting ready to go celebrate our nation's independence with wonderful friends makes me realize how blessed i am to have such freedom! i am blessed to live in a place where i have freedom of choice... the choice of religion, the choice of career, the choice of clothing and color of hair and so much more! Thank You Lord for all that You have blessed me with. Help me to remember not to take such things for granted. Help me also to remember and pray for those who do not have such freedoms - that they may find freedom within knowing You.
Friday, 26 June 2009
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when i arrived at work today there was a beautiful bouquet of flower, a card and a cake waiting for me! my coworkers are so sweet. (even though the cake is on the prettiest thing - its supposed to be balloons, but looks more like colorful bird poop!)
Wednesday, 17 June 2009
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Its been a while since i did an actual post... i guess things have just been busy. The new laptop is working well! i love it! There was a little software issue last week, but dell tech support was able to resolve it, which is really good. i especially like the fact that i can tap into the wireless connection from the breakroom downstairs at work - since work blocked the radio station i like to listen to! And it also means i have all my pictures with me and many of them make me smile - so thats can be a good thing during the work day.
Work is going well - progress is being made with my project - issues are getting resolved. i love it when things actually work the way they are susposed to!
although there are still some issues that i am working on resolving. Remedy is coming along!
Photo is courtesy of Andrew Kuster
i seem to have a thing for dried mango lately. But not just any type of dried mango - needs to be philippine mango. i tried a different kind when i didn't see the philippine mango and it just was NOT nearly as yummy.
This will be a busy weekend. Coney and i are heading up to Denver Friday night for the Midsummer Night's Dream Party at Lime. The most exciting part is that we get to wear wings
(the faries drink free!) i really enjoyed making the costume for Coney. i hope she likes it.Saturday friends Jack & Beth are getting married! YAY for weddings! i am the offical hairdresser, so that's always fun. And its a night wedding so there is plenty of time for sleeping after a busy night of showing off our wings.
Sunday is Father's Day, but my dad lives in California, so don't really have a celebration to attend or anything. Maybe that will be a good day to clean up my house and yard. the back yard is getting pretty bad!
Okay - that's all the update for now!
Monday, 08 June 2009
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more crazy dreams last night!!! So - in real life i am a "security warden" for the office - meaning that if the fire alarms go off, i get to put on a hardhat and vest and make sure that every gets out of the office. Well in last nights dream, i was at work and the alarm went off. We had a bunch of new people (and when i say a bunch, i mean like 50!) in the office and no one wanted to leave! i was screaming and yelling at people that they needed to get out of the building. I even hung up a couple of people's phones and physically forced them to get up out of their chairs. it was crazy! i was so upset - not understanding why these people i didn't know wouldn't listen to me and wanted to stay in an office where there was a possible fire! And they didn't seem to care that I wanted to leave the building, but couldn't until everyone else was out....
luckily, i know this would never happen in real life - our fire alarms are so loud and annoying, no one could possibly want to stay in the office with that piercing sound! The only reason i can stand to walk around and make sure everyone is out is because i have earplugs to wear!
Tuesday, 02 June 2009
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last nights dream was another odd one... i was in vegas with some friends - although i don't know who those friends actually were.... we were staying at a best western (in Vegas?!?) and they had this really sweet pool - with a pet alligator! (i think it was an alligator and not a crocodile - but i don't remember the position of its eyes... anywho...) and i was swimming across the pool and the "pet" came close to me - it scared me and so i wanted it to go away - but i guess it wanted to "play" or something. you know how dogs will "play bite" - barely putting their teeth down - that's what the alligator did! on my foot and hand... but i was still scared of it and the hotel staff was trying to help me get away as they could tell i didn't want to be around their pet. And then - when we were ready to go home, the friends's sister was totally late, and wouldn't hurry and made our taxi wait (which i was adamant that I would not be paying the additional fee) for like hours - and then i ended up missing my flight home... i woke up as i was working on trying to get a new flight...
Saturday, 30 May 2009
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God is just so amazing in how He uses people we encounter to remind us how special we are. Twice this week i have been told by people i've met a few times in the past, that they just love it when i am around because i make them smile. wow! how crazy is that! Thanks God for sending earthly angels to remind me that You made me special and i do have a purpose! Even if that's just to make other smile with my presence.
Friday, 29 May 2009
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feeling restless
where will this path i'm on take me?
what's around the next turn?
i can't see what's up ahead and that scares me.
i know where i want this path to go, but i am not the guide.
i want to turn around and go back.
back to a time/place that was known and safe and comfortable.
but i can't go back.
you can never go back to how things were.
i wish i knew how to express all the thoughts and feelings that are tumbling around inside of me.
i hate feeling restless.....
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just some random photos...
i just love how the sky & clouds looked on the way home yesterday
i love living here....
this is the tree in my front yard.... photo taken from inside my car (via the sun roof!)
these are the wild daisies that are growing in my yard
they make me smile. i'm so glad they were saved from the mower!
liorashiri
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- Name: Windie
- Country: United States
- State: Colorado
- Metro: Colorado Springs
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 1/21/2005
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I am a beautiful child of God, who loves to enjoy His creation. One of my favorite things to do is take pictures (click on the "visit my website" link to go to my picture site). I also love being with my friends and family. I like playing games, computers, reading, and making things pretty.
